Any person who knows me at all, knows that my favorite time of the year is autumn. I am not sure what exactly it is, but I get so filled with joy being bundled up in sweaters and watching all the leaves change to cozy hues. The feeling in the air and the woodsy smell is my “happy place.” But the second winter hits, it’s over for me. I fall into a depressed state until spring blooms. I think a lot about the seasons of life and what God does in each of those seasons. He has shown me seasons of joy, seasons of change, seasons of growth, and even seasons of sadness. But lately, I have been deep in a season of waiting. The beginning of this year was filled with so much change and action. I was unsure of exactly what was going to happen next, but I could also feel God’s hand in each decision. Then as time passed, I could feel God calling me to do so many exciting things… mission work, ministry, spreading the love of Jesus in any way that I can. It lit a fire in me and I became so consumed with beginning that new chapter. I was ready to quit everything, hop on a plane, and move to a third-world country to spread the Gospel. But that was my timing, not God’s. Patience is a virtue—but it’s one I do not possess. I like to jump into things whole-heartedly. It irks me to have to wait to do something that I am passionate about. So you can imagine my frustration when God said, “Wait.” So now the “autumn” of my life has passed and I am stuck in the dead of winter. How do we stay hopeful and joyous when God is asking us to be still and we are just ready to go? I think of Moses in the moments I feel doubtful or impatient. The story of Moses is so full of amazing ways God uses him to deliver God’s people. But Moses’ life wasn’t always action-packed. The poor guy was in waiting for 40 whole years, in the middle of the desert. What would have happened if Moses decided that the wait was too much or that God was simply taking too long? He chose to trust, and God used that time to prepare him for the “spring” of his life (aka, the entire book of Exodus). My goal for myself is to rest in the sureness of the Lord. Galatians 6:9 sums it up well, “And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due time we will reap, if we do not give up.” Winter can be a cold and gloomy time, but there is beauty in it’s still quietness. God is working and I am resting, preparing for the new birth of the spring.
Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage, wait for the Lord!“